The Gus Update

For those of you not familiar with my Gus problems, please scroll down and read the post about Gus.  For those already caught up, here is the update.  We have been able to "ignore" the situation for the last month or so because of Reagan's birthday, family coming into town, and Adam being out of town, but it is time for some decision to be made.  I am heart broken about this and could burst into tears each time I look at the floppy eared friend.  The bottom line is that the food worked a very small amount, which is not enough to keep him comfortable and the rest of us sane.  We have an appointment with the vet on Friday to discuss the next steps but I am just sick knowing what those next steps are.

In our minds, the next is to give Gus away.  That is, if we can find some wonderful person who is both willing and has the pocket book to love and care for Gus.  We've talked about sending him to Arizona to live with Adam's brother but I'm afraid that is only a temporary fix as allergies only get worse with time.  We'd need to find someone who is really OK spending mass amounts on the four legged friend.  I would be fine spending mass amounts if it didn't mean giving up family vacations or going back to work.  At some point I have to be realistic.

I was telling Adam it is so difficult because there are people in my life that disapprove of the potential decision.  It just sucks!  I am frustrated that their thoughts are weighing me down.  As I was telling him this, I had an enlightening experience.  I need to just make the decision that is best for our family and for Gus.  Face it, he could live here with us and we could do what we are currently doing to keep him as comfortable as possible, but what if there was a family willing to do whatever it took to "cure" him?  Wouldn't that be so much better for Gus?  Maybe I am being selfish wanting him to stay with me, because I would fee like I wasn't "failing him."  In reality, that is just what I would be doing!  I can't let that get in the way of him.

I know we'd get used to it, and maybe we'd get updates on him every once in a blue moon.  Adam, Reagan and I were in the basement playing yesterday and Roxy came down, but not Gus.  In those few minutes, I got a glimpse of what life would be like and we would survive.  So, long story short, I feel like I am coming to a better place about Gus and what is best for him as well.  I just hope it works out.  Say a prayer that the vet visit is productive!